Matt works nights and I usually let B sleep in our bed once a week. The house is so empty, and all of the pets (okay, not the hermit crab or bearded dragon, just two dogs and a cat) climb in with B and I. This feels the safest when we are all together.
He asked me tonight if he could sleep in our bed. I told him that I had said earlier in the week he could on Sunday night because it would be our last night with just us. (Matt is off starting tomorrow) B gave me a big long hug and was getting a little teary. I asked him what was the matter and he said he was just excited to be a brother. Seeing him so emotional got me emotional. I hugged him back so tight and a sadness covered my heart. He has been my one and only love for so long and is everything I could want in my baby boy. I have so much love for him, will I have enough to share? Will he be able to share me? This will be such a big change and I just felt overcome with the emotion of it all that I couldn't hold back my own tears.