Tuesday, December 4, 2012


I'm still not feeling good, my throat is sore, my ear hurts and I'm so so tired.  I'm stressed about our ICPC stay and my loss of income while we are gone.  We might have settled on a place to stay today though which does make me feel a bit better.  It is more than I want to spend, but a good rate for the hotel.  It provides a full kitchen which will help will saving money on meals out.  It is nice and clean and in an area close to other activities.

I did send the text to J today.   I didn't get a response.  I was at least hoping for one that said I had the wrong number so I wouldn't have to wonder if she got it or not.  I said Happy 1/2 birthday to J and that we think about them all each day.  Love and prayers, Matt, Amber, and B.

Tomorrow A goes to the Dr. and said she will call after.  I am excited to hear from her again. 

I am getting some done around the house but not as much as I would like do to being worn down with not feeling 100%.  I know there will not be lots of time for sleeping in my future either and I will have to get back to work as soon as possible.

B turns 8 on the 15th.  We are having a sleepover with his friends on Saturday night which is not the best timing but I don't want him to feel like we are pushing his birthday off.  I just called people to invite them and didn't get cute invites out like I would have liked (and even designed on Pic.mon.key)

I love all of the support we are getting from our friends and family that do know.  It feels so good to know that we have so many people who care about us and want to help.  My online friends are just as great.  Every email, message, or comment I get makes me smile because many of you are the ones who know just what this is like.

Please continue to pray for those still waiting for their call.  It is so very hard to go on and on without a plan.  The one couple I have written about a few times- I still don't know how I will share this news with them.  My heart hurts every time I think of it. 

Tonight while sitting in the rocking chair in the baby room I found a note on the dresser.  It was torn out from a notebook and had a drawing of a shooting star.  It had her name on the bottom and said "From Your Big Brother B" at the top.  Aww, Love.


  1. Oh B is going to be an amazing big brother!

    I to felt guilty sharing our placement because of those that were still waiting. I think anyone that is waiting knows you waited as well. I to felt lie I was "taking" someone else's baby because we tend to put others before ourselves. Know that A picked YOU. This is the daughter you waited for and the sister B prayed for.

    I'm sorry you didn't get a response. I'm sure if she got it, it was bitter sweet. Maybe she will still respond.

  2. Oh and the financial piece. We are still recovering from my maternity leave. It sucks, it's stressful but I got everything I want. ;). (At least that's what I tell myself- then I tell DH to pick up more OT shifts)

    Take a sec to call your congress person / senator to support the bill that makes the tax credit refundable! Your failed placement counts if you had expenses from that and next year if the credit is extended you could claim again! I just pray it passes before the 31st

  3. What a sweet note from B. Remember that it will all come together in the end no matter what plans you make. Praying all the details and finances come together to ease the worry.