My stomach hurts oh so bad, it is just in knots. Tomorrow is the day that I will remember for the rest of my life. I can't believe we are here. I can't believe we will be there. I should be in bed, resting, relaxing. Instead, I am crying, wondering, praying. I don't know what I'm wearing. I don't know what I'm going to say. I don't know what I will do. How do we do this???
I feel like I might get sick. Do you think birthmom is laying awake? Is she nervous about meeting us? Case worker told me this afternoon that bmom is really quiet and doesn't say a lot. She answers questions but doesn't give you lots more than what you asked for. She thinks that maybe she has a hard time showing emotion. I have a hard time containing my emotions.
I can't wait to find out if baby is a boy or a girl. Case worker said bmom is bringing us pictures from the ultrasound and will share the news with us. I don't want to see pain and heartache in bmom. My heart is hurting for her already. I don't want to feel like we are taking someones baby.